Those are some wise words from my Uncle Tom. We were walking somewhere and he asked if I had started smoking again. I shamefully confessed that yes, I had. He said, “Well, you’ll try again. You only fail when you stop trying.”
If I’m remembering correctly, that conversation occurred about 6 or 7 years ago. I attempted to quit smoking several times after that, never with any success that lasted more than a couple of weeks . . . until January of 2010. Today, I’m almost 20 months cigarette free (okay, I did slip up twice . . . to be fair, I was drinking and there was a smoke shop next to the bar, but each time I lit one cigarette, realized how gross it was, and got rid of the rest of the pack).
This post isn’t about smoking or quitting smoking. It’s about trying and continuing to try no matter how many times I fall because, like my Uncle Tom said, I can only fail when I stop trying. If you’ve been reading my blog for a while, you know that around this time last year I was in the midst of a weight loss endeavor. I think I was even doing fairly well at this point.
And then I crashed. I could run though all of the reasons I crashed. Some of them were related to stress and mild depression. Some of them were just related to laziness. But even in my crashing, I’ve learned and grown. I know where my difficulties lie and that makes it easier to combat them.
I’ve been talking a lot lately about getting back on track (and my friend Sharon’s awesome success definitely helps with the motivation!) and I have been doing little things that have helped (I’ve lost a few pounds over the last couple of weeks), but nothing substantial. This morning I woke up with a very clear-cut determination and so I’m ready to try again.
I have a tendency to overwhelm myself with goals and tasks. I set the bar so unreasonably high that there’s no possible way I’ll reach it and then when I don’t, I just let everything fall apart. I’m really trying not to do that this time.
I found a great website this morning – Everyday Health – and it has a food and fitness journal that’s super easy to use. Since I spend more than half my waking hours sitting in front of computer, this shouldn’t be too difficult.
I’ve had a great day today. I ate really well and my energy levels were higher than usual. I’ve even had 10 glasses of water so far today (that’s a big deal for me)! I have a diet iced tea addiction, so I made myself drink a cup of water before every cup of iced tea!
I have a lot more to write about . . . or maybe vlog about (I tossed that idea around before and I’m kind of digging it again), but I just wanted to get some of this out now . . . commit it to internet-land . . . accountability and all that jazz.
I don’t know what tomorrow brings. I’m working on one day at a time. But I know success is inevitable as long as I never stop trying.